This week I have been dealing with feeling tremendous guilt as a mother. Chasing after my goals requires me to out of the house 4 to 5 evenings a week. When i leave I feel as if I am letting my children down. I have always been a stay at home mom but now I am a mom in transition. I know that I am doing the best for them by doing what I am doing because if I don’t I will not be able to keep the household going now that I am on my own. I also want to show them that hard work and determination is key to a succesful life. I hope one day they will see what I have done and will be proud of me.
I cherish opportunities to spend time with them every chance I get. I am still spending day time at home with the little ones and take them on outings to the library and the grocery store. I am very excited to take all three of my little guys to Lowe’s this weekend for their build and grow workshop I am sure we will have a great time.
I am going to close my eyes and visualize handing over this burden to Jesus. I know he will give me the peace of knowing he is proud of me and knows my heart. I need his guidance every day to give me the courage to not stay at home when I know doing what’s best for my kids means I must leave and pursue the passions he has put in my heart.